what should i do, folks?

3/4/2014

do not disturrrrrrrrrrrr......bleh.

yeah. i feel at a loss.

it's march and i'm behind on my project.

i'd projected 30 paintings done by july/september and it's at....a fucking...crawl.

why is it crawling??

let me count the ways....

a) had to put my dog down.
b) my dude and i are...ehhh....outlook not so fucking good. haven't seen him pretty much since my dog died and forecast is raining single with a chance of not giving a fuck on the horizon.
c) i'm working away from home at the generator and life is full of twists, turns, and shiny distractions.
d) considering running for city council
e) i may be doing a mural downtown if my new friend isn't full of shit.

now, i'm not going to get into a, b, d, or e... but c... c is something i can perhaps manage better that will have a positive impact on getting MY work done in the time I've set aside for it.

SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO NOW?

STAY (AT THE GENERATOR):

exposure to other artists
exposure to other projects
free space
built my cubby and i'm all settled in
some of my favorite people work out of there
access to wood/metal shops etc.
social interaction
honor of being resident artist
working with kids weekly
less smoking, more drinking

GO (MOVE TO HOME STUDIO):

exposure to the sweet, gawking public is hard
my ideas/intellectual property are exposed
it's a far drive ( $$)
home studio is mostly free
some of my not favorite people work out of there
save money by not being part of the community
less distractions
stability of schedule, place, and time
less drinking, potentially more smoking
less politics/bureaucracy
and i'm not getting shit done

i'm torn.
i mean, it's already a struggle for me to work well a midst others and if this project falls behind... i just won't fucking forgive myself.

i guess this week i'm going to work out a stratagem where i can do both. hold down some fort at the generator and also reconstruct a ghost studio at my house for when the walls inside that wall-less wonder of a warehouse are crawling with drunken cockroaches.

wish me luck.

2 Comments

Sue

3/4/2014 12:32:13 pm

I like your idea to work both at home and at the genny. Take the project or other things you need more peace for home and chip away at it there, but when you need a break or some company, you can take advantage of the positives that the Genny provides.
Don't beat yourself up about your deadlines on the project. If they need to evolve and change slightly to fit other things in your life (d and e) that's fine, just acknowledge it, set new terms with yourself and move ahead, just don't give up on it!
And stay away from energy/time vampires,
That's my 2 cents.

Maia

3/4/2014 12:41:53 pm

BOTH! All of the above. If one turns out to be more productive focus energies there. Remember all the crazy cool work you did on Dickerson and other spaces? What was the key at that time? You create in the time and space you build for yourself. You are an evil mastermind (well more chaotic neutral) and a goddess everyday. Your friends never need to be reminded that about you, maybe you need to be reminded from time to time. Love you.

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